Ghosts on the River

I'm going to see a play Oct 2nd at Mexican Heritage Plaza with Rudy. If I get a job, I'd like to see Wicked and South Pacific in San Francisco.

I am reading Wild Orchid by Stuart Woods and another by Clive Clusser.

I spent another 3 hrs trimming the front and rear bushes. Who knew they would need so much maintenance. I never used to think about it.

My sleeping may be straightening out. Yesterday I woke up at 4:30 and couldn't get back to sleep. I should have gone to swim at 5.a.m. I was exhausted by 1 a.m. I fell asleep during Carson Daily until 8:30 then was up till 1 and took another nap. Now at 5p.m. I feel good. I haven't taken a sleeping pill in a few days.

I'm going to look for my recipe for coleslaw someone gave me in Hi. I haven't made it in 10 yrs at Kim's shower, but it is really good. I need to learn how to cut recipes in half. I want to make some more fish tacos. Despite the tortillas being 70-90 calories each they still have to be low in calories especially if you heat them in the microwave not oil in a pan.

I am barely functional with fractions. When I asked what double one was at Thanksgiving dinner one time, my friend Karen, a lawyer, said scornfully 'Oh come on." Yes I was embarrassed. I know I should have better math skills but as Karen and Michael can testify it isn't that I haven't tried. I took Algebra 5 times to pass the CBEST point by point to teach.

The best effort was with a self programmed text book of 2 at NVCC. I may still have them. Conceptual or abstract mathematical concepts get lost in the function of my brain. Maybe it's neuroscience wiring. The nuns at Imaculata seemed to think I could be taught. I sure didn't benefit from my tutoring in 5th grade camp at St. Maria's in MD. Or Algebra tutoring from Michael's friend Jeff or my friend's Norm or Marilyn's attempt to help. Geometry is a whole other thing. Theorems freeze and proofs numb my mind. Differential equations were a stretch for me in business school. Calculus...please. I walk by the kids just sucking it up in awe. It seems to go in their brains so easily. It must have begun in 4th and 5th grade. I know Dad even tried to tutor me much to our frustration.

You know the bad rap girls of my generation got about math. Math causes my brain to freeze. I can add, subtract, multiply and divide. All beyond is a bonus. Only boys were good at it..not. Just look at my friends Marilyn, Karen, Carolina and apparently, the other Karen, the lawyer, who moved back E. to N.J..

Now that seems a daunting feat. A few years ago I wouldn't have blinked. somehow I've become less daring. Someone online suggested I come and teach in China. I once interviewed to teach in Japan. I contemplated Europe more seriously. The tie up was storing all my stuff. I still would travel Mexico, Belize,Costa Rica, South America, Europe and Australia alone.

It would do me good to purge house. When I contemplated moving while Dad was helping me list my house I started packing things up.
My friend Gloria helped me clean the garage once and she took it upon herself to purge things like a skateboard and a kite, other things that I took in over the years from other people like Kim purging when she or her mom's house was emptied after she died. That was sobering. They were there 4o yrs. I've been here 30 in Oct.. I cleaned out the garage once since then but it needs it again.

This guy in Las Vegas told me I was loosing hands at the black jack table because I couldn't count fast enough. When I was a cashier though I sometimes came up with the total before the machine.